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Sunday, January 28, 2007

The Ghost of Wonder Woman

I have been a mom for almost 6 months. I have changed well over 300 diapers, given several hundred bottles, and washed lots of baby clothes. However, I have mopped my house 4 times, I do laundry throughout the week and when we are desperate, I really clean the bathrooms one week and surface clean them the next. I dust when I remember and sweep twice a week instead of every night. This is all because my son is not crawling. I will become a floor clean crazed woman when my son starts crawling. And to top things all off, I can only write every two months if I am lucky. What is my problem?

Before my son was born I thought that I would have everything together. I spent the last couple of months that I was pregnant getting my house and my life ready for a baby. I started organizing the house, getting rid of things, organizing how I would take care of him and take care of me. All of that has been thrown out the window, the door, down the tubes, something. Things are not what I thought. Not close.

Work has been completely out of control for me. Two nights this week, my son was in bed asleep before I left the office and my floors have not been mopped in a week now.

My mom carted around three children, kept a clean house, helped my dad, volunteered in the Art Council, Cancer Society and took art classes.... WHAT THE HECK????? I wish I knew how my mom did it. She did not make it look as hard as it is....

The other things I have noticed is that my husband and I have started talking to each other through our baby and referring to each other as "mommy" and "daddy". Creepy a little. What do Wonder Women do? And how? I don't have it and I am not sure when I will. One thing is for certain- I do have a beautiful baby boy who is the light of my life. He is sweet, smiles a lot, laughs, grabs my hair, looks in my eyes and grabs at our dog. I may be a mess, but he is the most wonderful little life in the whole world.

Messy me...